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My Greatest Fears Are…

 

Everyone is afraid of something: of spiders, darkness, their parents, snakes, clowns… My fears are nothing like that.

 

My greatest fear is that I am going to end up alone. I am afraid of that most because in less than two years I will still have lived here, in Novi Sad, where my family and friends are. Honestly, since my brother moved to Slovenia, three months ago, most of the time, at home, I have felt lonely. I do feel lonely. I don’t have anyone to talk to about my problems, I argue a lot with my parents. I don’t know if he feels the same, but luckily he is always texting and calling me and that makes me feel better and less alone and less lonely. I remember the last day before he left, we were in his room crying so hard and hugging. I had never seen him cry so much. I am afraid of that. I want to go to Slovenia to study there, too, and be successful, but how am I going to do that alone? The good thing is that my brother is going to be there with me and that I will argue less with my parents, but I will miss my friends a lot. What if they forget about me, or even worse, I forget about them? What if I change? I am so scared about the future because I don’t know what to expect. It is not always easy to leave and unlike me, my brother is so strong. I don’t know if I can do that.

The second thing I am afraid of is my relationship with my mother. We are like fire and rain; so different and we do not have anything in common with each other. I hope that we will not have that kind of relationship when I get married and start my own family. It is hard because I need her most now. But I can’t tell her anything because she is always yelling at me for no reason. I think that it is because she is just not happy with my dad… I don’t know. In these hard times it is not really easy in my house. And they both miss my brother very much.

In conclusion, I don’t know what is going to happen with those fears of mine, but I hope that everything is going to be just fine with my family and that I’ll never end up alone.

 

P. S.

(Well, I wrote The Third Written Task four months ago. Here’s the thing. Everything has turned out okay. My brother is having good time at college, the marks are good and he is happy. He visited us twice and in April I am going to visit him. My father moved to Switzerland to work there and I am now alone with my mom. It is much better. We talk, we have fun. I finally met the best side of her when she doesn’t have to worry about everything in the past what happened and I see a big change. She is happy and so am I.) 

 

IsidoraVeriš, III-4/2015